That wasn’t the plan

T. McCabe

My head said ‘this is the plan’

And my heart said ‘no’

My brain said we should do this

And my soul said ‘no way’

My guidance councilor suggested a direction

My spirit said ‘you must be kidding’

So I gave up thinking

and started dreaming

and my heart and spirit aligned and applauded

but my  parents, colleagues, and all around me

screamed, all said ‘you’re crazy’

I held my tongue and my heart

lined up my dream through a riffle’s eye

And held the trigger and target in the crosshairs,

through all the doleful years of mediocre humdrum

until there was the first opening,

and bang, off it went

my dream and I, both shot through a barrel

and the dream replaced the plan.

And now when I plan

I have better aim:

I ask my spirit if it’s crazy enough.